So...2010 has finally arrived. I went to my beach house with my family for New Year's eve. We had a great time, thank you.
But since last Wednesday I've been feeling kind of sad about all of this. I mean, 2009 finishing, 2010 starting...It's like too much for me.
Okay, last year -by this I mean 2009, and I explain it because this way I get use to it- was such a terrible one. People I love have died or turned their faces away for no reason -that seems to me.
Academicly it wasn't that bad though. But that wasn't enough. I keep thinking about those people I've lost and illness, and loneliness...
I can't understand why bad things happen to good people. Like my grandpa, just to give an example. A hard worker healthy man who was diagnosed stomach cancer a few months ago. He had surgery inmediatly, but now it seems like a sort of tumour remains near the liver or something. And he has to go all the way through chemo now.
My other grandpa died from something similar, not cancer, but a brain tumour. And it took him by surprise...
I don't want to get use to the idea that these kind of things happen to good people, but I'm kinda being forced to here. I mean, I live in Argentina, we've got this crappy government, politicians doing nothing for all of us. Our president just spends her time travelling and buying expensive stuff -with pur money, of course.
And people are killed everyday. Murdered. Kidnapped. Robbed.
Yesterday I was having this really nice conversation with my sister, who is almost 18 years old. I was about to polish my nails and I took my nail file, the one with the USA flag on it. She sang a song written by Ricardo Arjona which goes 'The stripes and stars are now owning my flag...' or something like that. And I got all deffensive and told her that, to me, that was a way out.
Colonialism has been dead since, I don't know...Cold War? Let's say Cold War. But we now need something/someone to help us out of this... And yeah, I know it is our responsability because we've voted and blah blah blah. But this woman, our so called president, is cheating on us since day one.
Okay, how did I get to this point? Oh, yeah...my grandpa's cancer, right?
Oh well, if I have to analize last year...was shit. Pure shit.
I guess just a few things/people helped me through it. My family being #1, of course. Then there's my best friend, like a sister to me. The Meryl Streep forum... OMG, almost everybody understand me there. They do. They feel what I feel. We share things and we talk our problems out. And last, but not least, Meryl Streep herself. She doesn't know me, I'm well aware of that, thank you. But she gives me such strength, such hope.
Don't you admire someone for what she/he does and feel like 'yeah, that's good, she/he is a role model'?. I mean, not just Meryl Streep. Look at Jane Fonda, Susan Sarandon, Angelina Jolie...many many people trying to make a better place for all of us. And even if they do not give to charity or participate in organisations; maybe they've changed your life by doing what they do. Maybe they've sung a song and you you realized you had some things to change in your life.
Oh, it's raining here. So, that's all for today...
Happy New Year everyone :)
Let's make it better this time.
